ARRH…
Don’t you hate it? All you do is work and work and work, and it feels like as if you have accomplished NOTHING. I seriously hate this feeling! I feel like that’s all I am doing is working my ass off to finally finish something, but I cant do it. Today my group partner and I got together and with the help of my wonderful/amazing boyfriend Geoff, we were able to knock something together =) Though it took a lot longer than I thought and Geoff has a lot of study to undertake, so I spent the whole time thinking that he should go home, but I needed him so badly and I was in this contradiction. I just feel at the moment like nothing is going my way. Geoff says to me, tell me everything, use me as someone you can talk to about anything that is troubling you. Yeh that is fine and I sort of already do but I know how much work he has and it would kill me if he failed or wasn’t happy with his result. He doesn’t realise how much he means to me and all the things I would do for him. I never want to interrupt him, cuz I know he needs to study, but it kills me inside that I cant talk to anyone… I mean I can, people say they are always here for me, but I don’t want to put my stupid problems on anyone else. I cant do this essay!!! Its terrible and I feel inadequate!!! Its horrible…why do I feel this way???!!!
I just feel so snowed over and I suppose you didnt want to read that either….
